Man.. If I didn’t have to carry my dad’s weight around all the time, I would be able to go out and do my own activities. Like today, I could have hung out with Linda and Diana, but no, I couldn’t because I need to take care of my dad. I am so hindered.. and I really wanted to go out with friends today. I know taking care of my dad is something I shouldn’t have to think about whether I should help my own father or not, but I want to live my life too. I feel as though he is taking my teenage/young years away. I’m not able to live my own life. It’s like I inherited his misfortunes too. His leg is tied to my leg. I’m feeling so ugh right now. -022112